i can't really remember the first time i went online - it feels like i've always been here. my dad is a huge computer nerd who brags about being online when no one else was, and he gave us kids similarly precocious access to the internet. i mostly played dressup games, neopets, toontown, VMK (forever missed), and webkinz, the year i got one for a birthday. i think back fondly to getting grounded for giving our computer a virus from the zwinky toolbar.

lucky and unlucky for my psyche, i got put out to the troubled teen school pastures in 7th grade, keeping me mostly offline until i graduated high school. i dodged 4chan, newgrounds, surprise porn and all the worst, but missed out completely on myspace, youtube anime, the good kids' mmos like club penguin or poptropica, the birth of memes, and the best parts of being a teen emo. my graduation was just in time for facebook's reign, tumblr's rise, and the start of real fandoms, and in my fervor to catch up, i managed to get kinda tumblr famous for a while? thanks, homestuck. i regret this and you won't find much of me in public spaces nowadays.

for the last half a decade or so, i've just been... lurking, i guess? i kind of like it that way, but as my disabilities get worse, i've started to accept that i need my online presence to be fulfilling. i can't digital detox like most people could, i'd go insane in my house without something to entertain and educate me like the internet does. i'm trying to take steps to make my day-to-day better, because in the end, life is all the days-to-days and then you die.

i miss having somewhere that isn't forcibly connected to my legal name. i hate thinking about how aesthetically pleasing my feed looks. i wish i didn't have to worry about whether this is a good time to post art according to the algorithm. i want to goof off and enjoy myself! so i've made this. i spent way too long coding everything myself, offline, the old fashioned way (though i'm "cheating" with sublime instead of notepad, i hate closing tags and i'm not sorry) and if you're reading this, i'm happy enough with it. yay?